As a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, I believe it’s true that one day, Jesus Christ will return to the Earth, and every knee shall bend and head will bow and tongue confess, that he is The Christ.
Many days I wonder how soon The Lord’s Return will be. I don’t feel ready. I feel I have such a long ways to go. I hope and pray I will have peace on that day that I will be able to see him face to face and that I won’t shrink before Him.
I hope and pray that I might not shrink before my friends or family members, that I might be able to boldly testify of the truths I’ve come learn for myself. Jesus is The Christ. He loves all of his children infinitely. He is full of light and truth, and he is the way, the only way to have true peace and joy in this life.
It starts with telling the truth. First, to yourself. Be honest. Be kind. Be forgiving. Be loving and keep going. Keep changing. Keep believing. I hope I’ve changed. I hope that when I see old friends, they’ll see the change.
The desire to change came gradually. It began with acknowledging my wrongs, my deceitfulness, and my true desires. It was like I was asleep. Asleep to truth. When I took small quiet moments to reflect and to write, I could see that deep down something inside of me felt empty. I was always attempting to feel the void, the hurt, and the pain with insatiable appetites. Addicted. Addicted to pain. To hurt. To substances. To relationships. It was a cyclic hell, and I never want to return again! If you’re reading this, I hope you can have courage to let go, forgive, tell the truth, and follow Jesus Christ. One mistake that’s easy to make, is to judge others and assume their lives are perfect. When you go to church and see their faces, they’re hurting too. When you get a calling, accept it. Don’t murmur and don’t complain.
These are all common tricks of the adversary, I’ve experienced them all. I can’t think of depths I have not been mentally that perhaps you’ve traveled too. It’s dark. It’s lonely. It’s bitter. And it’s all a ploy from the author of lies. That same being who put it into the heart of Cain to slay his brother. Hatred is not from God. Anger, contention, and lust are not from God. When you feel the anger, the bitterness, or the judgement begin, turn to Jesus Christ. It his place to judge! Not yours! Someone may be rude and unkind at church. Forgive them, seventy time seven. I will always remember the day, a person apologized for something they said about me when they thought I wasn’t around. I felt hurt for a long time. I never asked what was said, but why focus on the mote in your brothers eye, when you have a beam extending from your own? I am imperfect. We are all imperfect people! This is why we have The Savior. He is the way! The only way we can change, forgive, and learn to love others and God, as we are commanded to do. God does not say be kind to the person’s face then turn around and speak ill behind their back. He asks us to love, truly love, our fellow men.
People preach “love is love” and what does that mean? Love, pure love, is infinite and eternal. It does not lust after idols and influencers. It does not lust after highschool flames or college flings! Love, true love, is pure, genuine, sincere, and honest. Can you say, with all honesty that you trust yourself or your partner to be alone with another person? I’ll tell you right now I love my spouse and respect my spouse, so we made the rule that we’re never alone with another person! For me, female or male. Yes I’m human, and some may say do whatever feels natural. Well, the natural man is an enemy to God! I love my spouse, and I never want to put myself in a situation where I’m tempted to cheat!
Recently, I’ve felt not to be alone with other couples, outside of family, and I’m going to listen! There have been too many times where I didn’t listen to the promptings to know that I am not taking any more chances. Learn from my mistakes. Follow the spirit. Follow your conscience. Follow your heart, not your lustful burning desires, but your deepest purest desires! Not carnal. Not sensual. Pure desires that bring light and truth.
If you don’t know where to start, pray. You can listen to people all day tell you what you should or shouldn’t do, but you have got to decide for yourself who you are and who you want to become. No one can define that but you. If you really want to know the truth, pay attention to patterns in your life. I promise you that if you do, you’ll notice there’s always opposition. There’s always a choice between something of a lesser and something of a better. Sometimes it’s between what’s good, better, and best, and I implore you, I beg you, I plead for you to choose what’s best at least 10 times in a row. See where it takes you. If you can’t do 10, start with once and go from there. Make goals. Ask yourself where this choice will lead you. Is it really where you want to go? Is it where you want your future? Stop letting your past dictate your present and your future. I’ve done it for decades, and please, learn from my mistakes!
Finally, pay attention to people who are happy. People who are different. No not the fake visaud of happiness. People who are truly genuinely happy in a different way. They exist. I promise. Just watch. And when you find one, talk to them. Ask them questions, and let them ask you questions.
Have an open heart and an open mind. I promise if you truly desire to know the truth of all things, pray and ask for guidance and direction. Heavenly Father hears and answers prayers. Ask in the name of Jesus Christ, and he will hear you and he will answer you, I promise. This is coming from a former agnostic, a person who could have cared less about whether or not there was a God 8 years ago. The moment I decided to let The Light of Jesus Christ into my life, I have had experiences and opportunities that have richly blessed my life. No, it’s not easy. It’s hard. Why do you think so many have walked away? I was one of them, for a time. Because I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it, and The Lord has rules. It was easy to say, “Nah, no thanks, I don’t want to have to answer to someone for my actions. I’m my own master, and I’ll decided for myself who I am and where I’m going. There is no Fate or divine destiny.” And guess what! That’s a partial truth the adversary loves to tell. You know why? Because it’s true, you get to decide! But YOU DO NOT DECIDE THE CONSEQUENCES.
And just when things seemed like one calamity after another, I came across this quote,
“The inhabitants of the earth are asleep: they know not the day of their visitation. The Lord hath set the bow in the cloud for a sign that while it shall be seen, seed time and harvest, summer and winter shall not fail; but when it shall disappear, woe to that generation, for behold the end cometh quickly.” (D.H.C., Vol. V, p 402).
I hope and pray I’ll be ready. Whether in my life or the next life, I know I will see the Lord again face-to-face, and I hope I can look back on my mortal journey with fondness and gratitude for having had the experience.
Jesus Christ, our Lord and Redeemer, is coming. Find the truth for yourself, and do it quickly. “Time is running out.” (President Russell M. Nelson of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints). In the name of Jesus Christ amen.